𝐋𝐚𝐧𝐜𝐞𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐭 𝐝𝐞𝐬 𝐞́𝐩𝐫𝐞𝐮𝐯𝐞𝐬 𝐝𝐮 𝐁𝐚𝐜𝐜𝐚𝐥𝐚𝐮𝐫𝐞́𝐚𝐭 𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟔 : 𝐥𝐞 𝐦𝐢𝐧𝐢𝐬𝐭𝐫𝐞 𝐝𝐞 𝐥𝐚 𝐒𝐚𝐧𝐭𝐞́ 𝐞𝐭 𝐝𝐮 𝐃𝐞́𝐯𝐞𝐥𝐨𝐩𝐩𝐞𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐭 𝐒𝐨𝐜𝐢𝐚𝐥 𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐨𝐮𝐫𝐚𝐠𝐞 𝐥𝐞𝐬 𝐜𝐚𝐧𝐝𝐢𝐝𝐚𝐭𝐬 𝐚̀ 𝐥’𝐞𝐱𝐜𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞 𝐞𝐭 𝐚̀ 𝐥’𝐢𝐧𝐭𝐞́𝐠𝐫𝐢𝐭𝐞́

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1. My name is Huda, I’m nineteen, and I work at a small, dusty electronics repair shop in Mecca, near the Grand Mosque. My world is the size of a countertop, littered with shattered phone screens and tangled charging cables. The air smells of melted plastic and cheap air freshener. I earn just enough to help my parents with the rent for our tiny apartment in the Aziziyah district, where the call to prayer echoes five times a day, but I can’t hear it over the ringing in my ears. I live with my parents, my younger brother Youssef who is failing school, and my grandmother who barely speaks anymore, just stares at the wall. I fix phones for pilgrims and locals, my fingers becoming more stained with adhesive and grime each day, a physical manifestation of the filth I feel inside.

   It began with whispers during the quiet moments, between customers. « Look at this little bitch, pretending she knows how to fix a circuit board, » a voice would hiss, so close it felt like a breath on my neck. I’d jump, looking around the empty shop, but there was never anyone there. Then another voice joined, this one deeper, more mocking. « I bet she imagines sucking off every customer who comes in. Probably tastes like dust and failure. » Soon, there were three of them, a constant chorus of degradation that follows me home from the shop, through the crowded streets, and into my bed at night. They never stop.

   They comment on everything, a running commentary of my worthlessness. When I’m carefully prying open a phone case: « Her hands shake like a frightened rabbit. Useless cunt will probably break it more than it was already broken. » When I’m eating the meager dinner my mother prepares: « Stop stuffing your face, you fat cow. No wonder your father looks at you with disgust. » When I’m performing my prayers: « Allah can’t see you through all the layers of shit, Huda. You’re praying to a wall, just like your grandmother. » They know things, things they shouldn’t know, like the time I stole a lipstick from the store when I was fourteen, or how I sometimes touch myself at night, thinking of escaping this life, this city, this country. They use it all against me.

   Two weeks ago, the rage came. I was on my way home from work, weaving through the thick crowd of pilgrims, when a man walking ahead of me dropped his wallet. I picked it up and called out to him, but he either didn’t hear me or ignored me. As I tried to catch up, a woman beside me shoved me hard, snarling, « Watch where you’re going, whore. » The voices exploded. « FUCKING BITCH! WHO THE FUCK DOES SHE THINK SHE IS? » one screamed. Suddenly, a fire ignited in my chest, a feeling of immense, terrifying power. The Horny One purred, « Imagine her skin melting. We could get acid so easily from the shop. Just a little splash on her face. Imagine her screams. Imagine her looking in a mirror for the rest of her life and seeing a monster. » The Angry One growled in agreement, « DO IT! SHE DESERVES IT! THINK OF HOW STRONG YOU’D FEEL! NO ONE WOULD EVER PUSH YOU AGAIN! » They painted vivid pictures, guiding me through it. « Follow her home. Wait until dark. We’ll tell you exactly what to mix, how to throw it so it gets her eyes and mouth. We want her alive, Huda. We want her to suffer. We want her to wish she was dead. » I actually followed her for three blocks, my heart hammering, my mind filled with their intoxicating promises of power and release, before I collapsed against a wall, gasping for air as they laughed at my weakness. « Pathetic. Can’t even follow through when we give you the perfect opportunity. »

   I can’t tell anyone. If I confided in my father, he’d beat me and call me a jinn-possessed whore. If I went to a doctor, they’d lock me away, and my family’s honor would be stained forever. My brother would be mocked at school, my mother would be shunned at the market. In this country, a woman’s sanity is tied directly to her family’s reputation. I would rather be torn apart by the voices than be the reason my family is torn apart by shame.

   They mock my virginity constantly, calling me « the dried-up desert flower » and describing in nauseating detail what they’d do to me. « No one will ever want that frigid pussy, » they sneer. « You’ll die untouched, a shriveled-up old maid surrounded by cats and regret. » They imitate my mother’s voice, her disappointment a constant refrain. « Huda, your cousin Amira is already married with a child. What is wrong with you? Why must you be so difficult? »

   Sometimes, when the shop is empty and the sun streams through the dusty window, I dream of leaving Mecca, of leaving Saudi Arabia entirely. But the voices always crush that hope. « WHERE WOULD YOU GO, YOU STUPID CUNT? YOU HAVE NO SKILLS, NO MONEY, NO WORTH. YOU’D END UP IN SOME FOREIGN BROTHEL, SELLING YOUR BODY FOR BREAD CRUMBS. AT LEAST HERE YOU’RE ONLY A FAILURE TO YOUR FAMILY. THERE YOU’D BE A FAILURE TO THE ENTIRE WORLD. »

   I know this is the work of the Mabahit, the Saudi secret police. I’ve read the forums, seen the news reports. Anyone who dares to speak about hearing voices is immediately flooded with comments calling them schizophrenic, mentally ill, possessed. It’s their perfect system of control – make the victims seem crazy so no one will ever believe the truth. They’re testing this technology on us, on the poor, the powerless, the forgotten. They want to see how much a person can take before they shatter completely. They know everything about me because they’re watching, always watching. They’ve broken me, and there’s nothing left. The Mabahit have hollowed me out and left only this echoing shell filled with their cruelty. « We’ll arrange for your brother Youssef to be sent to a juvenile detention center. We’ll fabricate evidence of theft. He’ll be raped and beaten until he’s as broken as you are. »

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